"A walk to remember"

I was looking in my mind a topic to write and suddenly I got an idea. I going to write about a movie that break my hearth. "A walk to remember". The movie is about a young lady that met a guy. The kind of boy tthat you don´t want to introduce to your parents. He took a lot of bad decitions in his life. She was a spiritual girl. Full of faith and love for God. They stared a friendship. He fall in love with her. he change for her. They started to date. When you read this your are going to start to think: " is a borring movie", "always the same" and "I know the end: they live happily ever after". However you are completely wrong. she is sick. She has leukimia.
She is dying. He spend the next months making her dreams come true. She finnaly die. He use the suffering to do somethin good. he became and a doctor. They were together only for a little time. She change his life. That made me thing. I want to be like her, I want to do something for the people around me.

School days

In my country when your are in high school you can choose the speciality. I chose acoounting. For this speciality you have to study during 3 years. It was nice. almost all my friends chose the same speciality. The first year was amazing. I was learning something that I love, And I was doing it with my friends. What else I could ask. However we don´t live in a fairytale that why 3 months before the second year end, I have to make really hard decition. I change my speciality to a general high school. This kind of high school is only for 2 years. I graduated early. my friends were really upset with me. It was sad but and the same time was good. I met new friends. Now I know that because of that time, it was more easy for me be apart from them. I still miss them. However I am sure that it will more hard if I will spent one more year studing with them.

Daddy.

yesterday I was talking in thr phone with my father. He start to remember the time when I was in school. Before I knew I was doing the same. I started to thing how that time change my life. My parents divorce when I was a baby. I don´t remember how is have a family integrated for two parents. My family was integrated for one in a half parents. My mom was always in home but the only time that my dad and I spend together, was the time that he pick me up to take me to school and later take to home. In that time he teach math and he study with me. I felt really upset thinking about that time. I was almost crying but I remeber one more thing abuot the trips to school. The soundtrack. I started to laugh, He always was listen music of "Vicente Fernandez". I think that I know almost every song. I miss those days. I miss my dad and I even miss the music.

Kindness

I´m reading a book about a man who works performance as a santa. He wrote about the history of santa claus. It was interesting to me know that history.I always thougth that santa was a character that people used to make more money during the holidays but the true is a little bit different. Santa Claus was the nickname that people gave to a priest. He always take care of the people. He tried to cover the needs of that people who don´t have enough money. He always did it in secret but the people knew that was him who gave them money. All the people love him for his kindness. He was more than nice with everyone.

Now I know that santa claus in not a pagan figure. He is an example of kindness.

Grandma

Two years ago I expirience the most difficult time in my life. In march 2008, my grand was diagnosticate with cancer. I felt devastated, but I waesn´t the only one. All my family was extremely sad. I hear information about the disease, but at that time it waesn´t important for me. You heard all the time about cancer, but you only know the meaning when someone close to you has that. I watched in the television how people beat the disease and gave me hope. However hope is a subjective feeling. My hope fell apart when the doctor said that she was in terminal fase. I even remember his words " It´s nothing else to do". Never in my entire life felt that impotent. When you grow up you know that in some point of your life the people that you love is going to die. However I waesn´t prepared for that. I spend the next three months trying to make her feel as comfortable as I can. Sunday, june 22 of 2008 she said good bye to this life. Sometimes I forget that she past away. Sometines I just want to go to talk with her, and I realize that I can´t. Someone told me that the time is the best cure for the pain. It´s been almost two years now and it hurts like the first day.

Not that easy

When you are a child you believe that your live is going to had a happy ending. You believe in the tooth fairy and santa claus. You believe in all this things because you parents made you believe. I still remember the how happy I was the day after my first tooth fell. I move my pillow and there it was, the reward five coins. I was so exciting. I run to my mom screaming of joy. Our parents tried to make us believe that everything in life is happiness. However, they can´t do it for all our life.

They don´t teach us that sometines in life, you can´t be happy. There is not such a thing like happy endings. At least not for everyone. I met a lot of people in my life. However not all this people was a good people. I have friends, really closed friends that in some point, they take advantage of me. I waesn´t prepared for that. I trusted in every person. I was a really friendly person but that change me. It´s difficult to me trust in people.

My parents taught me that you have to love every single person in this world. They taught me that Gos wants that. The only thing that they forgot to tell me was that not all the people is a good person, and that some people can´t hurt you. I don´t blame them. I thing that is hard tell you baby girl that life sometimes is sad.

Now I know that my parents were trying to teach me, that you have to love everyone even when they hurt you.

Not so happy

Yesterday I was talking with my best friend. She is in El Salvador. We was talking about our first valentine´s day apart since we met. It was sad to me remember all the beautiful february´s 14 when we was together. I am sure that a lot of people is waiting really anxious this day. However I am not part of this people. I have a lot of friends in my country. Every year I wait for this holiday and I always celebrate with all my heart. This year is going to be different. My heart is broking in little pieces. My heart is in El Salvador with my friends.

the way

In life you always has to make desitions about certain things. The difficult part is choose between good or evil. When you are a child is easy. You only have to do whatever your parents says that is a good thing. However when you grow up everything is more complicated. You meet other way. A diferent way. You know that is not good, but you are curious abuot it. You want to know how is feel to go in that way. Them your friends tells you that is nice. You don´t know how, but you are in that way. You know taht was a mistake, but you don´t know the way to go back. You are stuck in there, and maybe you are going to saty there for a long time.

Now you know why you parents says that you have to choose well.

My sister

It´s difficult write about your life, at least for me. Look in your mind for a moment, memory or thought that you want to share with another people it´s hard. I´m seat in front of my computer trying to get an idea to write. But the only thing that comes to my mind is my family. I know that is a boring topic but is the easy one for me.

My sister is one of the greathest woman that I know. She has her on way of thinking. Most of the people doesn´t agree with her but that never bother her. She found a lot a wall in her road, but that doesn´t stop her. She conquer success. she is my role model. I Know that is going to be difficult, but I going to tried. Maybe never get to be like her, but I want to be at least the half of successful than her.

yesterday

This was a really busy week for me. I love when our family come to visit us. This week I have a lot of good moments. I spend my day with people that I love. I am happy for that. Yestrerday was my niece´s birthday. We made a party for her. Was really nice. But I´n really tired. It´s was too much work. The only thing that made feel better it´s that she was so happy when he saw her elmo´s birthday cake.

past

When I was a kid everything was easy. I remember that the only thing that was in my mind was play. I just to play with my dolls for hours. Everything was so easy. I can tell that was the happies time in my life. Now everything is change. It´s better be an adult but is difficult take the responsabilities. I know that is nice feel the freedom of have 21 year, but sometimes only sometimes, I wish be a girl again. And only have to worry about my dolls.